smell rain

It rained incessantly

that night

 

while I tore you apart

bit by bit

one limb at a time

 

and laid you to rest

 

I love you

but

you’re no good

for me

 

 

But not enough

I am beautiful

but not enough

to make you

forget

your pain

 

If I were stone

I would not speak

 

 

But I am not stone

 

 

hurry

 

Now that I have already confessed

my feelings

 

why do we still play this game?

 

give me back my mornings

which were meant only for dreaming about you

 

Or else come finish all this work

and let me be

 

2011

Another year comes to its end
This year will be etched in memory
forever

this year

I heard your name through
a random conversation
and like a tiny breeze
that grows into a whirlwind
that consumes everything

you consumed me.
I am because
you are.

and that is how
it will be forever

And if I placed myself
as the offering to you

Please don’t decline me
I will not rest
until I am
fully gone.

Pain

Suffering is not necessarily a bad thing
It is the prerequisite for change.

Thank you for every illness
every night spent in tears
and every cherished dream
that you shattered

Thank you for being adamant
and stubborn
with me

Someday,
I want to be like you.

A request

What is the point in wanting you
half heartedly

If I have even the tiniest speck
of sincerity in me

let my desire for you
consume me

let me breathe, eat, walk, sleep, talk, laugh, cry, love, obsess over you
and only you

Convince me
that only you exist

do this much for me

my beloved

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Oh, how can I even begin to explain
the tenderness

my whole being is stretched
into a never ending curve
let it never end

the tenderness of your
eyes upon me

I could use words
to explain this feeling

I could call it ecstasy
or love
all my desires
coming true

but all I can think of is
the tenderness
in your voice
in your eyes

the tenderness
of your ways
of our days
together

Washed away
everything
all pain
all experience
all all

only you remain

my beloved